People ask me a lot what I miss the most so far. I miss my family of course. I miss being able to get into my car and drive to wherever whenever. I miss the small things. I get on Facebook and see people and my friends living their lives. They are applying to jobs and attending family functions. They are taking road trips and having struggles living in new cities. I often wonder what I would be doing if I was home. A part of me thinks I will get home and everything will be how it was when I left. But it won’t and it never will. I see my friends getting these amazing jobs and opportunities and think, good for them they have started their lives! I have to remind myself often that this life. And it has started.
I use this metaphor about boats a lot. (I’m a visual person so humor me for a bit) We are all in a boat called “our life” sailing in different directions going across different oceans and floating down streams. Sometimes the winds are still and we are like sitting ducks not moving anywhere. I think a lot of the time though the wind is always blowing. Sometime it knocks you over! But we all still keep sailing. We are each in our own little boats. I have friends getting married, starting their lives, moving across the country for new experiences, and that is their life. My life is full of new countries, figuring out exchange rates, booking train tickets, and figuring out a new metro or bus line every other week. We are all still sailing and the more I think about “starting a life” as we all say a lot- we already have. This is my life and what I make of it is up to me. A life doesn’t start when you land that job or get married. (I see getting married as you are now sharing your boat with another person/they are sailing down the same path as you) We have people coming jumping on our boats of life all the time and jumping off.
I suppose this goes back to my “be present” motto, but I truly believe we all have a path. I think I tell myself that as soon a get my first job or as soon as I pay bills by myself that all will be good. I think we can have those “as soon as ______ happens” moments all the time. We must take things as they come. Prioritize what is important and go from there. As much as I can picture what things will be like when I return to the states I am sure it will be much different. I can tell you I have heard from very close friends more than once what different lives we lead. But in this crazy ass thing we call life I am so excited and proud of the adventures and experiences I have had so far in my boat.
I love what a friend wrote to me, “It’s crazy how we are both growing and changing so much, but in two different hemispheres, time zones and continents.”
-my reflections on the UK are up next!